The reason for CrazyTrain

I started this blog for a health class; I have never blogged before... I guess we shall see where this goes. I am not a stranger to writing, but writing for others to read is a different story. Either way I am much better in detail when conversing on things that are important to me, than what I think others want me to discuss.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Unit 3: On a scale...




On a scale of 1-10, I would have to say my physical well-being is about a 4. I am overweight, out of shape, and it’s faster to write a list of what isn’t wrong with me. My spiritual well-being is about an 8, as I have always had faith in God; without faith I would have been dead long ago. I don’t usually go out of my way to share this with others, but without faith in something higher I would see no other reason for being here, as I do not believe in accidents as complex as the human body. Saying this, I am only an 8 because I know I’m not perfect, and not everyone has all the answers; I don’t go out of my way to push my beliefs on others because I feel it’s not always right to do so. My psychological well-being is a 6; not good, but not always bad. I have depression and stress from too much on my plate all the time. I am borderline bipolar, and with my fibromyalgia depression is hard to rid. I lost my job, have relationship issues, I always have homework, and 3 out of 4 kids have behavioral disorders that are being dealt with; things are a bit psychotic around me right now.

I need to start using my treadmill to exercise more, but I need to find time for that without it bothering the other 5 people in my house; I should utilize any free time to do this. I also would like to eat better and cook healthier for the kids, but with our budget this isn’t easy. To make myself feel better about my faith I should probably start reading again; refresh feelings about my beliefs. As far as my psych goals, I need to start taking more natural supplement to balance out the chemicals that are in control of what goes on in my head. If I weren’t so broke I would just do that, but right now I have to take my pharmaceuticals as they are paid by insurance. I hate knowing that I could take things better for me but I can’t afford to; in my life it all comes down to money.

Once again, the relaxation exercise was not beneficial as there is narration again. I don’t like being told how to relax when I have 4 loud kids, Jammy cooking, and a whiny dog distracting my attention. My version of relaxation is sitting on the floor in the front room, while everyone else is asleep, playing with my beads and wire.
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3 comments:

  1. MgericksonNovember 3, 2012 at 12:05 PM

    Crystal,

    You did a wonderful job on your blog and I have to thank you for your honesty, that is exactly why I like the blogs, more so than the discussion board, it actually gives you the opportunity to be real and not just a student. I want to commend you for your hard work and accomplishments in life, it does sound like you have a lot on your plate, but it also sounds like you are taking the right steps in your life to make changes for a more positive future. You have acknowledged that we as humans are not perfect and I like that, I think it would be very difficult to rate yourself a 10 on all aspects of optimal well being because that leaves absolutely no room for change and if we don't leave room for change we are simply stuck in our current ways. I agree with you everybody sees relaxation in a different way depending on their circumstances, I also have a very busy loud home and bedtime for me is pure bliss, just that moment of pure silence at the end of he day is a nice dose of relaxation. Try not to get discouraged because it sounds like you are heading in the right direction, so keep up the good work.

    Michelle

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  2. MzNaturally-PatriciaNovember 4, 2012 at 1:51 PM

    Hi Crystal~
    This is Patricia stopping by. I, too have to agree with Michelle. I commend you for your honesty and straight forwardness. You have a uniqueness about yourself which is really cool. Looking at your picture, you are so very pretty. Of course I can't tell by the picture, but you do not look overweight. You and I have something in common; our belief in God. Like you, without faith and God I really do not know where I would be right now. My life had many turns and obstacles and God brought me through all of it (and is still bringing me through so many other things). Crystal, you blog is so honest and transparent. It truly has encouraged me to know that despite all that you are going through, you faith is sustaining you in every aspect of your life. Just keep pushing on because you will meet your goals (smile). Take care.

    Patricia

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  3. UnknownNovember 4, 2012 at 7:28 PM

    Thanks ladies, I like the blog better as well, and I like being myself; there is no point in living life as someone else, for any reason. The last 12 years have been a trip for sure, and not always for the good. I think we all have our stories, and we all change in some way, it just depends on which we direction we want changed. Trying to find the meaning in things isn't easy, but that is how prayer is like my own form of meditation... I think that is how I look at it. :)

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